And its official....

I called the emergency number at the clinic first a receptionist was kind enough (after I told her my dilemma) to page a doctor on call, and then a doctor called back almost right away. I explained to her that I did the test as was required and that my doctor has not received the results, and that I cannot get a straight answer from anybody at Mt. Sinai lab, and that I only have enough progesterone for tonight, that the test in the morning was negative, but that I don't want to base my decision on that. She took pity on me, and even though she didn't have access to my file, she called the lab and after confirming my information with me, she told me that the results came back negative - with beta being less than 1. She said she was very sorry, but I held up pretty good. I already knew the results, so it wasn't such a blow. She asked if we had any frosties, and after I told her - unfortunately no, I think she felt even worse.

But, I've decided that for now, I'll try to maintain my blog, as we haven't moved far enough from where we started. I might not do it every day, as I've been doing it, but it is therapeutic for me too. So for now, to all my followers (and those who are lurking) I'll be honoured if you continue my journey with me.