This was a very eventful week and I had no strength to get to my computer at home until today. I've been EXHAUSTED. Have to have a chat with my boss on Sunday (yep, still working Sundays) and cut my hours back, otherwise he is not going to get much productivity out of me. But I'll start from the time I left off at my last post.
So last week Tuesday my uncle did flew in from overseas, and once it was confirmed that he landed and an approximate time he will be home, DH & I drove to his house. The added bonus - my cousin and her husband were also there, but my parents didn't arrive yet. As we said our hello's, my aunt asked if I wanted some wine and I said NO we are not drinking (I did use "WE"), then I continued looking at my uncle that I wanted him to be in TO in March. He asked whether I'll be travelling to L (where I was born) and want to stay in his house there. I told him "NO, I won't be able to travel at that time". A this point, I could see that my aunt realized what was happening and started beaming, but didn't say a word, as I was pressing on. I said to my uncle "d.V. I can't drink, and I can't travel, why do you think that is?" At that point my cousin entered the room and yelled "Are you pregnant?" Needless to say they were all ecstatic (as they kind of knew that we wanted to have a baby for a long time, but not the extent of our TTC journey). So then my uncle kept asking if my dad knew, and at that point my parents came. We had a lovely evening with most of the conversation centred around my pregnancy and the baby.
I thought that my uncle was a bit upset and I wanted to talk to my dad about it, but was very busy in the office on Wednesday. Instead, around lunch time I got a call from my dad who said that d.V. called and said that he was upset that my dad didn't tell him before as he knew for some time now. I am lucky that my dad read my mind and told d.V. the exact thing that I would have told him - he said that those are very exciting news that I wanted to tell him in person and not over the phone, and that once I knew that he was coming home I dropped everything and went to him right away to tell him the news in person - well, my uncles was pleased!
So then on Wednesday evening I decided to call my other cousin in TO ("N") who I don't see or talk to much, not because I don't want to but because they decided to leave at the opposite side of the City and by the time I get home I don't really want to talk to anybody. Anyways, I called her and asked her about her school (she went back to college this fall) and then her work (as she worked at the same place where I started my career), then I told her that I can't wait until I leave my work in 5 months. She asked if it was forever and I said, nope, probably for a year. Then she clicked and asked if I was pregnant, and I said "yep". At that moment I had to move away from the phone as she was literally screaming in my ear - happy scream. I didn't expect such a reaction and was a bit shocked. She asked if she can tell her husband and her mom (my aunt) and I said, of course, and she wanted to call them right away - as I looked at the time (it was 10:30 p.m.) I told her that neither her husband nor her mom would be happy waking up t 5:30 a.m. We actually ended up talking for another 30 minutes and when we finished she said that she has to tell someone the great news and it would be ok to wake up her husband at 6:00am :) After I finished with her, I was too tired to pack, so just went to sleep.
Thursday morning, I started with packing my suit case, well actually I gathered all the things I was taking for the weekend onto my dresser and DH was to pack it once he gathered all his stuff. We managed to leave TO at around 7:30 p.m., crossing the border was pretty quick, the immigration/customs person just looked at our trunk and the bags of food (mostly fruit) and let us go. We stopped at a nice hotel about 5 hours into our trip and in the morning had only 3 more hours to drive.
On our way to Cincinnati, we stopped at the outlet mall, but i wasn't in the mood to buy anything, although DH managed to get a few things that he wanted for some time. We were at our friends house by 3 p.m. Her DH was working but she made a nice lunch (yummy) and bought a cheesecake (double yummy!). So after we finished with all the food we decided to go for a walk. She recommended a park nearby that her and her hubby really liked. I was lucky that they had washrooms along the trails as we took two long trails (took us over 1.5 hours) and by the time we were done it was already getting pretty dark. It was a great work out though! I could feel all my muscles as I don't really exercise much (although I should!). We got home at the same time as her husband came over. The guys of course had some drinks and me and my friend just had a glass of milk each :) We finished our night at a local pub where the guys had more to drink, and the ladies enjoyed caffeine free iced tea.
The next morning we had a long breakfast as we were catching up on a lot of stuff. The plan was to go to one store and then for a walk in Downtown. Well the guys decided that while we got to the store they will go to a number of dealerships to look at cars. The thing is that right now we only have one car, and DH & I decided that we will need a second car when the baby comes as I'll be home alone with the baby during the day and there is not much i can do within a walking distance from our car. To make the story short, we managed to go to a few stores and malls while guys were going to one dealership after another. Then we didn't have time to go for a walk Downtown as we had reservations at a Brazilian restaurant, which was not bad as it was the first time in a long time I was able to eat meat. There was another nice surprise - a huge Oktober.fest right next to the restaurant, and we spent some time being squished by all sorts of people drinking beer and eating German food and listening to German music. DH loved it and wanted to stay there for a while, I didn't mind either, but our friends were not enjoying so many people (and there were lots and lots of people) so we went home and continued to party there (well, boys continued and I bid good night around midnight).
Sunday we were thinking of leaving at around noon - 1 p.m., but had such a great time just talking about different stuff that we didn't get to our car close to 2 p.m. and then continued talking just standing there for a good quarter of an hour. I was so sad to leave. I know that we are going to see them again in November when all of us would go to our "babymoon", but she is one of my best friends and it was so hard to say good bye. The drive was almost uneventful. The guy at the border didn't even look at our passports (Canadian security - go figure...). We did hit some traffic about 2 hours away from home that delayed our arrival by over 30 minutes.
I was happy that I didn't gain any weight while vising Ohio, but I had a very bad constipation on Sunday and Monday and by Tuesday gained a whole 1 kg. I really hope that it's because of that. I guess we'll see tomorrow.
I am happy to report that I did get my be.lla band while we were in the States, and I am loving it!!! I used it with my jeans while I was there and with my dress pants (NOT the fat ones) at work this week.
Monday and Tuesday were crazy busy at work (as was expected). I am getting tired by around 3 p.m., by 5 p.m. I am exhausted and by the time I leave (which is 7:20 p.m., I am completely brain dead!). So the standard operating procedure at home is just eating salad in front of the TV and going to sleep. Although, yesterday the procedure changed a bit as we BDed just before going to sleep and it was amazing! We both finally could let go of our fears for the baby and just enjoy it the way we used to. Yei for us!!!
Today, I was exhausted the moment I got up, and also have had a headache since the morning. The headache got so bad by mid day that I think it turned in to a migraine as I got very nauseous, it was hard to concentrate on work at all. I managed to leave by 6:20 p.m. to get an earlier train, so I could relax at home.
It's funny but my 4 y.o. niece called me today (using face talk through iPhone with my sis' help of course) and she told me that she wants a baby girl cousin so she can play with her. When I asked her whether she is going to play with her cousin if its going to be a boy, she thought about it and said that she will. She started talking again, but I couldn't hear her as the TV was on, so I moved to another room just in time to hear her say to me that I should not be upset if it is a boy. She also said that she is coming to my baby shower and will help to organize it with her mommy. And that she will bring a small present for the baby as the baby is small and then when the baby is going to be bigger (like 4, 5, 6 years old) she'll bring the baby a bigger present. She was so cute, just from the shower and sitting in her bed. I blew her a kiss and told her that I love her and she kissed the phone and said that she love me too. I was so touched by this conversation!!!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
14 weeks
It's Monday night and I am writing my post for this week (which I usually do on Wednesday or Thursday), but I had so many thoughts and new feelings today that I just have to "write" them down.
I couldn't fall asleep last night. I was nauseous and rally tired, but couldn't sleep, but when I finally fell a sleep I had a dream. DH asked if it was a nice dream or a bad dream, and I couldn't even answer this question. I was in the hospital waiting room with my baby in my arms, but with the umbilical cord still connecting us. I was told that I have to had a c-section as there was a lot of umbilical cord left in me and it all tangled and the baby is not getting nutrition. So I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting for the surgery and breast feeding my baby. Weird, right? But the thing is that I am not so worked up about the dream itself but by the feelings it evoked. The entire morning I was missing my baby, I really wanted to hold him/her in my arms, to the point where my heart is aching. I just long for my baby, and I can't even describe it. This is the first time that I actually felt a connection to the little soul that is inside me.
I was also bored at work a bit (shhh, don't tell my boss) and I was browsing other blogs and looking at the belly pictures. I did realize today that my tummy does feel bigger and the "fat" pants starting to hurt much more (and stay open pretty much from the moment I get to my office to the second I have to get out to meet people or go home). But once I looked that the belly pics of thin people at around the same stage, they looked HUGE, and I dawned on me. I am showing! There is actually more baby in my tummy than there is fat. And that's so so cool. I can't wait until our US trip this weekend when I can pick up my be.lla band, and be able to wear other pants as well. My secretary actually touched my tummy today and was surprised on how firm it is. Yes, there is a baby inside, and the realization of this made me very happy.
So, Thursday last week we crossed the 14th week threshold and are nearing 15th week soon. I am happy to report that after I lost 2 kg, I've only gained less than 0.5 kg, and since I decided that I am not gaining more than 6 kg (15lb), I am happy with that, although the last two days were a bit tough with more stuff coming in than coming out (if you know what I mean). I hope that problem gets resolved quickly as I can see the weight gradually going up, but I attribute it to the food that I store inside me. I do get nauseous still if I don't eat on time or when I get tired and in the evenings. Food aversions are still pretty strong as I can't eat fish or meat. Last week DH made me a cold soup that I really loved - it's the same that my mom used to make for me - with boiled potatoes and spinach, with kefir, hard boiled egg, fresh cucumbers and reddish (yummy!!!). It was great when it was hot outside as this soup is eaten cold, but when the temperatures dipped closer to the end of the week, it was less fun. So DH made me borsch, but without potatoes and without meat. In stead he put red beans, and with sour cream it is just delicious!!!
Well, DH is not the only cook in the family. Sunday morning, before heading to the office, I made french toast and DH loved it, and I ended up eating 2 pieces at breakfast and took 2 more with me to the office (and borsch, of course :) ). So that was Sunday, but Saturday, DH was cooking breakfast as we had my family and MIL for breakfast. Friday night I went to visit my parents after work, and when my mom asked about breakfast on Saturday, I told her that all I wanted to do is sleep. Well when DH showed up to pick me up, he was quickly charmed by my mom to agreeing to host breakfast.
After breakfast on Saturday, me, my mom and my brother went shopping, and I splurged on buying 4 bras (the normal everyday ones, not anything pregnancy or breast feeding related). After we came back from shopping, my mom, my brother and I just hanged out at our backyard in the shade, which was amazing. It was pretty hot outside, but with in the shade it was just perfect. I got a call from my friends and they invited us to go to Yorkville to try to see some actors who are in town for TI.FF. We had an amazing time. We haven't seen any celebrities, but I've never seen so many people in Yorkville who waited for hours next to the entrances to hotels and restaurants to have a glance at celebrities. It was nice to hang around with my friends, and actually my BIL & SIL went as well and took their van so we all snuggled in in one car. Didn't get home until 2 a.m., and was hard to get up at 10:30 a.m. on Sunday to go to the office.
My uncle is flying in tomorrow, and I want to visit him to tell him the news. My sis was with our cousin on Saturday and was texting and phoning me on whether she can spill the beans to my cousin. I told her no, that I want my uncle to know first. My uncle has a special place in my heart, even though I don't see him often. I am his favourite niece and he is my only uncle (my mom has 3 sisters). I want to tell him first before any of his children know, and I so hope my sis kept her mouth shut! She told me this morning that she is perplexed as to my order of people I want to tell about my pregnancy. My question to her (which I didn't tell her there) is why the hell you care?!?!? Not your pregnancy, not your news!!! How hard is it to respect a pregnant person's wishes, especially when that person struggled for 4.5 years to get to this point. I am just getting pissed at her more and more!!! She was also giving me a hard time that we didn't invite her to go with us on Saturday night as this was the only weekend my BIL was not working. Well, it was arrange by HER best friend, and he told us that she had no one to be with the kids. They do have a live-in but she is off on the weekends, and our parents live about 30 minutes away, so she rarely goes out with us on the weekends unless the nanny is home. But, no, it somehow turned out my fault that her best friend misinterpreted what she said. I called and spoke to DH after getting text messages from my sis, and DH had to calm me down. I am so tired of her constant "naezdi" (there is just no direct translation in English that I can think of right now for this word).
The next couple of days will be very busy at the office, as my boss is treating me going away for a weekend and taking Friday off like a major holiday. I have no clue how stressful it is going to be before I go away for 1.5 weeks in November. Oh well. I guess we will deal with it once we get there. For now, I am happy to see my prego friend in the U.S. so the next update will probably be in about a week, when I'll be over 15 weeks pregnant :) as per my ticker collection, as of today, 178 days to go!!!
I couldn't fall asleep last night. I was nauseous and rally tired, but couldn't sleep, but when I finally fell a sleep I had a dream. DH asked if it was a nice dream or a bad dream, and I couldn't even answer this question. I was in the hospital waiting room with my baby in my arms, but with the umbilical cord still connecting us. I was told that I have to had a c-section as there was a lot of umbilical cord left in me and it all tangled and the baby is not getting nutrition. So I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting for the surgery and breast feeding my baby. Weird, right? But the thing is that I am not so worked up about the dream itself but by the feelings it evoked. The entire morning I was missing my baby, I really wanted to hold him/her in my arms, to the point where my heart is aching. I just long for my baby, and I can't even describe it. This is the first time that I actually felt a connection to the little soul that is inside me.
I was also bored at work a bit (shhh, don't tell my boss) and I was browsing other blogs and looking at the belly pictures. I did realize today that my tummy does feel bigger and the "fat" pants starting to hurt much more (and stay open pretty much from the moment I get to my office to the second I have to get out to meet people or go home). But once I looked that the belly pics of thin people at around the same stage, they looked HUGE, and I dawned on me. I am showing! There is actually more baby in my tummy than there is fat. And that's so so cool. I can't wait until our US trip this weekend when I can pick up my be.lla band, and be able to wear other pants as well. My secretary actually touched my tummy today and was surprised on how firm it is. Yes, there is a baby inside, and the realization of this made me very happy.
So, Thursday last week we crossed the 14th week threshold and are nearing 15th week soon. I am happy to report that after I lost 2 kg, I've only gained less than 0.5 kg, and since I decided that I am not gaining more than 6 kg (15lb), I am happy with that, although the last two days were a bit tough with more stuff coming in than coming out (if you know what I mean). I hope that problem gets resolved quickly as I can see the weight gradually going up, but I attribute it to the food that I store inside me. I do get nauseous still if I don't eat on time or when I get tired and in the evenings. Food aversions are still pretty strong as I can't eat fish or meat. Last week DH made me a cold soup that I really loved - it's the same that my mom used to make for me - with boiled potatoes and spinach, with kefir, hard boiled egg, fresh cucumbers and reddish (yummy!!!). It was great when it was hot outside as this soup is eaten cold, but when the temperatures dipped closer to the end of the week, it was less fun. So DH made me borsch, but without potatoes and without meat. In stead he put red beans, and with sour cream it is just delicious!!!
Well, DH is not the only cook in the family. Sunday morning, before heading to the office, I made french toast and DH loved it, and I ended up eating 2 pieces at breakfast and took 2 more with me to the office (and borsch, of course :) ). So that was Sunday, but Saturday, DH was cooking breakfast as we had my family and MIL for breakfast. Friday night I went to visit my parents after work, and when my mom asked about breakfast on Saturday, I told her that all I wanted to do is sleep. Well when DH showed up to pick me up, he was quickly charmed by my mom to agreeing to host breakfast.
After breakfast on Saturday, me, my mom and my brother went shopping, and I splurged on buying 4 bras (the normal everyday ones, not anything pregnancy or breast feeding related). After we came back from shopping, my mom, my brother and I just hanged out at our backyard in the shade, which was amazing. It was pretty hot outside, but with in the shade it was just perfect. I got a call from my friends and they invited us to go to Yorkville to try to see some actors who are in town for TI.FF. We had an amazing time. We haven't seen any celebrities, but I've never seen so many people in Yorkville who waited for hours next to the entrances to hotels and restaurants to have a glance at celebrities. It was nice to hang around with my friends, and actually my BIL & SIL went as well and took their van so we all snuggled in in one car. Didn't get home until 2 a.m., and was hard to get up at 10:30 a.m. on Sunday to go to the office.
My uncle is flying in tomorrow, and I want to visit him to tell him the news. My sis was with our cousin on Saturday and was texting and phoning me on whether she can spill the beans to my cousin. I told her no, that I want my uncle to know first. My uncle has a special place in my heart, even though I don't see him often. I am his favourite niece and he is my only uncle (my mom has 3 sisters). I want to tell him first before any of his children know, and I so hope my sis kept her mouth shut! She told me this morning that she is perplexed as to my order of people I want to tell about my pregnancy. My question to her (which I didn't tell her there) is why the hell you care?!?!? Not your pregnancy, not your news!!! How hard is it to respect a pregnant person's wishes, especially when that person struggled for 4.5 years to get to this point. I am just getting pissed at her more and more!!! She was also giving me a hard time that we didn't invite her to go with us on Saturday night as this was the only weekend my BIL was not working. Well, it was arrange by HER best friend, and he told us that she had no one to be with the kids. They do have a live-in but she is off on the weekends, and our parents live about 30 minutes away, so she rarely goes out with us on the weekends unless the nanny is home. But, no, it somehow turned out my fault that her best friend misinterpreted what she said. I called and spoke to DH after getting text messages from my sis, and DH had to calm me down. I am so tired of her constant "naezdi" (there is just no direct translation in English that I can think of right now for this word).
The next couple of days will be very busy at the office, as my boss is treating me going away for a weekend and taking Friday off like a major holiday. I have no clue how stressful it is going to be before I go away for 1.5 weeks in November. Oh well. I guess we will deal with it once we get there. For now, I am happy to see my prego friend in the U.S. so the next update will probably be in about a week, when I'll be over 15 weeks pregnant :) as per my ticker collection, as of today, 178 days to go!!!
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
13 weeks and first OBGYN apt!
Last Friday (13w1d) was our first apt with OBGYN. We arrived at his office at exactly 9:30 a.m., and the reception was --- empty! Yep, at my old OBGYN (who I had before all the IF struggles) always had a reception full of people and waiting times of a few hours. I was pleasantly surprised to say the least. His receptionist also turned out to be very nice we completed all the forms and confirmed all information. DH asked her about parking, as the parking meter machine was out of order, and as she told him there was another one he decided to go back and pay so as not to get the ticket. He wasn't gone for 2 minutes when the doctor called me in. He turned out to be an older gentlemen but with a good sense of humour. We went through my medical history (including how this baby was conceived). He also asked me if I have any questions, which I had (and I wrote them down too). By the time DH arrived, we finished going trough all my questions. He assured me that both BD and exercise are all good, as long as I don't do high impact (like aerobics). We then proceeded into the exam room. As we were walking towards the examination room, the doc told me that since I've been poked and probed a lot in the past few months, at this time he would only do an external exam. He touched my tummy and said that the he can feel the baby and that it is a bit bigger than 13 weeks I am. He had a student there as well, who also touched me and said that the baby feels more like 16-17 weeks. Well, I am not placing any emphasis on that opinion as he is a student. As I was thinking further after I left the office, I thought that they would ask me to pee before the apt (as that's what others told me they were asked to do) so I was pretty full, and that might have pushed the baby up more. Anyways, I am not worried. The doc also talked about my diet and said that he wants me to gain about 10 kg. But, as DH and I were discussing it later, the doc didn't take into account me being extremely overweight and Health Canada guidelines only allow me 5-9 kg. I am trying to stick with 6 kg from my weight right now (and I hope that even full term I would not be as big as I was at one point in the past 4 years). We were in and out of the OBGYN in 30 min. Which was also amazing!
As I got to the office there was of course emergencies just waiting for me, so I didn't end up leaving until after 8:30 p.m. (and that's on a Friday before the long weekend). I went to my parents house and complained that my OBGYN didn't use a doppler, so my dad got a stethoscope that they use to measure blood pressure, and started probing my tummy. Surprisingly, he found the heart beat. It sounded very distant and I am still not 100% convinced that it was it (as he gave me to listen too), but I did hear something.
Saturday morning the cleaning lady was coming (oh how we both love our cleaning lady). So we were both up pretty early cleaning the house before the cleaning lady. Yep have to tidy up the place a bit. Then we decided to go our for breakfast and the only people who agreed to come were my mom and my brother, so we had a nice family lunch. And since we arrived early the place was not really full yet. I then had my first pedicure since the spring. My SIL got me all scared telling me that a pedicure is a no-no, as I was not supposed to put my feet in hot water. I thought it only applied to the first trimester so was happy to book my pedi once we were past that deadline, but she insisted that I should not go through with it and that she didn't do hers during both of her pregnancies. She got me so paranoid that I spent a few hours on the internet, which only objections to pedi is that infection might be bad and the fumes might make you nauseous. Then I called my sis, who said that she went for pedi every few weeks through out both of her pregnancies. So, I went, and it was amazing! I told them to not make the water hot as I was pregnant (yep I said that to a stranger :) ) and they made my water barely warm, but I still enjoyed it. As it was really hot and humid outside, we spent most of the Saturday in front of a TV, but then around 7 p.m. I decided that I want to go for a walk. That was not a good idea. I don't know what the temperature was but it was very humid so even leisurely walking I was out of breath by the time we reached 1.5km mark, and we were the furthest away from our house (we were making a circle), so by the time we reached BIL & SIL's house (3km all together) we were both sweaty and red faced. It was nice to step into an a/c house. We spent the evening at their house as they had friends over who are DH's child friends as well.
Sunday we decided to sleep in as much as possible (even with me getting up to pee 2-3 times per night). We were in bed just lounging around and just joking and playing with each other, and one thing led to the other and we actually BD!!! Yes, first time in beginning of June. At the beginning it was a bit awkward as we tried to chose a position to not to hurt the baby (and squish the mommy) much and still felt a bit guilty about doing it with the baby inside, but boy was it very very pleasurable. ;) We again spent some time having a breakfast and just vegging out in front of the TV and then decided go to Lakeshore. DH took his roller-blades and went for a ride, and I just walked for an hour. Near the lake the breeze was nice and cool, and as I was walking near the water I was imagining how next summer I'll be taking our baby for a stroll here (although the driving there is a bit of a pain, I think I can manage). I love Lakeshore. I remembered that every time in the past 4 years when we would go there, I would imagine me with a stroller (as other moms around me) and this time it was very close to reality. I have a little soul inside me, which is growing and before we know it will be a part of our family. I can't wait to meet you...
The walk was very invigorating, and I was happy to go for a walk 2 days in a row. We then decided to go to the movies and as I wasn't in he mood for anything serious or action, we saw Our idiot brother, which I found was a nice movie (and funny at times) to watch before going to bed.
Monday was a holiday, so more time in bed, although no BDing this time around. I had to help my dad's friend's daughter with some docs, so by mid day DH drove me to her house. She turned out to be really nice, she had a baby 6 weeks ago. So I told her that I was pregnant and the first thing that she said to me is "You can't imagine how the baby will change your life". We did go through the topics of her pregnancy, labour and breastfeeding, and managed to do it in 15 min as DH was waiting for me in the car (he is a bit introvert and doesn't really like meeting new people). The baby was cute too.
As we drove north to meet this girl, we decided to drive West to Kleinburg a nice little town where I love to walk (plus they have a pretty big park). The problem was that it was freaking freezing (I bet not more than 15C) plus we were supposed to get to my SIL's house as it was her mom's birthday. We did have a nice stroll through the main street and then back to the car to get warm with a stop at Star.bucks for me to pee :). At least I got in 30 min of walking on Monday too. The bbq at SIL's house was uneventful and it being a night before going back to work we went home pretty early.
Tuesday, the boss was back, so no more hardly working for me. So both Tuesday and today were very busy days at the office. The good think is that my nausea is subsiding (or so I thought) although today (Wednesday) it has been pretty bad. My bbs hurt too, plus everything else down there. I think the baby is shuffling things around to extend his/her home as I have pains in my uterus, ovaries and kidneys as well as lower back. Oh well, as long as the baby is healthy and growing.
Even with all my "padding" I can feel the hard places on my lower tummy where the baby is. The girl at my work (who I don't really like) telling me every day that I am starting to show (and all i want to do is just hit her hard so she leaves me alone). Anyways, I can also feel the fullness in my lower tummy which I think is my uterus, placenta and the baby.
My sis bought me a stretch cream that she used. So I used it for the first time after the shower on Sunday, and omg it stinks!!! I don't like the smell, and DH doesn't like the smell, but I am not about to throw out $40 worth of product. So I am sticking with it until it is done and then asking DH to order me a different one on line, which my prego friend recommended. I just talked to her and she just got that different cream herself and says that to her that cream doesn't smell bad. Well, I'll be visiting her next week and will smell it for myself first before ordering it. The other good thing, is that she told me that my be.lla bands have arrived! Yei!!! I can't wait to try them on. I have to unbutton my fat pants in the afternoon, so I am looking forward to switching to my regular pants with the band.
Tomorrow will be 14 weeks, and I just want the time to hurry up just a bit, so I could start feeling the baby move! I guess I should enjoy each step of the pregnancy, and the best part is that the anxiety about this pregnancy is almost gone (not completely, but almost gone), with a great help from my due date buddies at ivf(dot)ca. I just love love love that site. It was an amazing form of support during the past year of all the heavy duty treatments and now when all of us post-ivfers have tons of insecurities about our pregnancies. Anyways, better get to bed, tomorrow is another long day at the office.
As I got to the office there was of course emergencies just waiting for me, so I didn't end up leaving until after 8:30 p.m. (and that's on a Friday before the long weekend). I went to my parents house and complained that my OBGYN didn't use a doppler, so my dad got a stethoscope that they use to measure blood pressure, and started probing my tummy. Surprisingly, he found the heart beat. It sounded very distant and I am still not 100% convinced that it was it (as he gave me to listen too), but I did hear something.
Saturday morning the cleaning lady was coming (oh how we both love our cleaning lady). So we were both up pretty early cleaning the house before the cleaning lady. Yep have to tidy up the place a bit. Then we decided to go our for breakfast and the only people who agreed to come were my mom and my brother, so we had a nice family lunch. And since we arrived early the place was not really full yet. I then had my first pedicure since the spring. My SIL got me all scared telling me that a pedicure is a no-no, as I was not supposed to put my feet in hot water. I thought it only applied to the first trimester so was happy to book my pedi once we were past that deadline, but she insisted that I should not go through with it and that she didn't do hers during both of her pregnancies. She got me so paranoid that I spent a few hours on the internet, which only objections to pedi is that infection might be bad and the fumes might make you nauseous. Then I called my sis, who said that she went for pedi every few weeks through out both of her pregnancies. So, I went, and it was amazing! I told them to not make the water hot as I was pregnant (yep I said that to a stranger :) ) and they made my water barely warm, but I still enjoyed it. As it was really hot and humid outside, we spent most of the Saturday in front of a TV, but then around 7 p.m. I decided that I want to go for a walk. That was not a good idea. I don't know what the temperature was but it was very humid so even leisurely walking I was out of breath by the time we reached 1.5km mark, and we were the furthest away from our house (we were making a circle), so by the time we reached BIL & SIL's house (3km all together) we were both sweaty and red faced. It was nice to step into an a/c house. We spent the evening at their house as they had friends over who are DH's child friends as well.
Sunday we decided to sleep in as much as possible (even with me getting up to pee 2-3 times per night). We were in bed just lounging around and just joking and playing with each other, and one thing led to the other and we actually BD!!! Yes, first time in beginning of June. At the beginning it was a bit awkward as we tried to chose a position to not to hurt the baby (and squish the mommy) much and still felt a bit guilty about doing it with the baby inside, but boy was it very very pleasurable. ;) We again spent some time having a breakfast and just vegging out in front of the TV and then decided go to Lakeshore. DH took his roller-blades and went for a ride, and I just walked for an hour. Near the lake the breeze was nice and cool, and as I was walking near the water I was imagining how next summer I'll be taking our baby for a stroll here (although the driving there is a bit of a pain, I think I can manage). I love Lakeshore. I remembered that every time in the past 4 years when we would go there, I would imagine me with a stroller (as other moms around me) and this time it was very close to reality. I have a little soul inside me, which is growing and before we know it will be a part of our family. I can't wait to meet you...
The walk was very invigorating, and I was happy to go for a walk 2 days in a row. We then decided to go to the movies and as I wasn't in he mood for anything serious or action, we saw Our idiot brother, which I found was a nice movie (and funny at times) to watch before going to bed.
Monday was a holiday, so more time in bed, although no BDing this time around. I had to help my dad's friend's daughter with some docs, so by mid day DH drove me to her house. She turned out to be really nice, she had a baby 6 weeks ago. So I told her that I was pregnant and the first thing that she said to me is "You can't imagine how the baby will change your life". We did go through the topics of her pregnancy, labour and breastfeeding, and managed to do it in 15 min as DH was waiting for me in the car (he is a bit introvert and doesn't really like meeting new people). The baby was cute too.
As we drove north to meet this girl, we decided to drive West to Kleinburg a nice little town where I love to walk (plus they have a pretty big park). The problem was that it was freaking freezing (I bet not more than 15C) plus we were supposed to get to my SIL's house as it was her mom's birthday. We did have a nice stroll through the main street and then back to the car to get warm with a stop at Star.bucks for me to pee :). At least I got in 30 min of walking on Monday too. The bbq at SIL's house was uneventful and it being a night before going back to work we went home pretty early.
Tuesday, the boss was back, so no more hardly working for me. So both Tuesday and today were very busy days at the office. The good think is that my nausea is subsiding (or so I thought) although today (Wednesday) it has been pretty bad. My bbs hurt too, plus everything else down there. I think the baby is shuffling things around to extend his/her home as I have pains in my uterus, ovaries and kidneys as well as lower back. Oh well, as long as the baby is healthy and growing.
Even with all my "padding" I can feel the hard places on my lower tummy where the baby is. The girl at my work (who I don't really like) telling me every day that I am starting to show (and all i want to do is just hit her hard so she leaves me alone). Anyways, I can also feel the fullness in my lower tummy which I think is my uterus, placenta and the baby.
My sis bought me a stretch cream that she used. So I used it for the first time after the shower on Sunday, and omg it stinks!!! I don't like the smell, and DH doesn't like the smell, but I am not about to throw out $40 worth of product. So I am sticking with it until it is done and then asking DH to order me a different one on line, which my prego friend recommended. I just talked to her and she just got that different cream herself and says that to her that cream doesn't smell bad. Well, I'll be visiting her next week and will smell it for myself first before ordering it. The other good thing, is that she told me that my be.lla bands have arrived! Yei!!! I can't wait to try them on. I have to unbutton my fat pants in the afternoon, so I am looking forward to switching to my regular pants with the band.
Tomorrow will be 14 weeks, and I just want the time to hurry up just a bit, so I could start feeling the baby move! I guess I should enjoy each step of the pregnancy, and the best part is that the anxiety about this pregnancy is almost gone (not completely, but almost gone), with a great help from my due date buddies at ivf(dot)ca. I just love love love that site. It was an amazing form of support during the past year of all the heavy duty treatments and now when all of us post-ivfers have tons of insecurities about our pregnancies. Anyways, better get to bed, tomorrow is another long day at the office.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
12 weeks
As of last Thursday we are in the 12 week territory! (Yep I am a bit behind on posting and this post has been in the making for a very very long time! but I have been one busy bee)
Of course I couldn't sleep before our NT scan. I woke up at 5 a.m. and was just watching the clock, and then realized that DH is not sleeping either, so I asked him if he is also anxious and he said "No!". I think he was as we both just tossed and turned until it was time to get up. We got to the hospital with a few minutes to spare and there was already a line up at the reception. I told receptionist that i had an apt for 8 o'clock and she just said to take a seat. I told her that I had a full bladder as I was told to drink water when making the apt and she said that I can go ahead and pee, to which I replied that I better not.
We ended up waiting for over 30 minutes before we were taken in (after the clinic where we were always taken in right away - this was an unpleasant change). The u/s tech was a young lady and she turned out to be Russian. We asked her if we can record the last part on the iphone and she said NO, even though I told her that we did it twice before and techs had no problem with that. Well she still insisted that we cannot do that - so we didn't, which was a shame. As she started her measurements I couldn't see the screen and DH was telling me what was happening on the screen, with baby moving his/her arms and legs :) and turning around all the time. Even though, the baby was very active, the tech managed to get the results pretty quickly (I sneaked a peak at the paper and NT was 1.5 mm, which Dr. Google says is about average!). Then we had a blast just watching the baby move. He/she was very active, turning his/her bum to us every time the tech would find his/her profile. The baby was wiggling his/her arms and legs, and at one point he/she stretched his/her legs so that the sac and probably my uterus stretched out, and DH was like "Can you feel it? Can you feel it?" and I couldn't as 1st the u/s probe was putting pressure on my tummy and 2nd I don't think I can feel anything yet. The baby was measuring 61.1mm, so he/she grew up 3 times in the past 3 weeks. The hb was at 157 b/minute, which is slower than 3 weeks ago, but u/s tech said that it is standard for the baby's heart beat to slow down a bit as the baby gets older. The baby was measuring 61.1mm and I am so upset that I forgot to ask the tech where the baby is in terms of weeks and days. I googled it, but got very different answers, so am trying to let it go until our OBGYN apt.
After the u/s we headed to my parents to show them the pics of their third grandson/daughter, and then straight to the office. It was our summer party. So I only spent about 2-3 hours at the office and we were out walking to a restaurant to meet the rest of the firm (yep we are always the last ones to leave - ALWAYS!). As we were really late we walked for a bit until we spotted a taxi. It was a nice day and we spend a few hours relaxing on a patio. I was hesitant at first whether to break the news to the rest of the office (there were actually only 2 people who didn't know and a wife of one of the partners). So almost at the end I said to my clerk: "It's too bad that I wont be here for next summer party." She instantaneously understood what I was trying to do, and played along. I did get a reaction from the ladies, of course. The guys kind of ignore it, oh well... After the party me and my clerk decided to walk to the train to head home and it was a good 30 min walk, which was also fast paced as I was afraid to miss my train (the first one!!! which I NEVER take). As I got on the train I realized that I'll have no one to pick me up, as DH was still at the office and my sis is taking the later train, but the weather was beautiful and I decided to walk home (another 30 minute walk). My plan was to get home, change and go to a salon to do my pedicure - again walking another 3 km. It was a great plan but by the time I got home I was exhausted. I didn't sleep well, stayed most of the day outside, and walked for over an hour pretty fast. I decided to rest lay on a couch for a minute, and when I felt that there is no way I could leave the house right now, I just peeled myself off the couch and dragged myself to bed. It was great 3 hour sleep. :)
Friday, I had to leave the office early as our friend was getting married. I was a bit anxious as I knew there would be people who I didn't want to tell my news, and others that I wanted to tell, although we didn't know most of the people there. My sis went with us. As I was chitchatting with a friend who I haven't seen in a while, I told her that we are expecting, and she said: "Me too!" I was like WHAT!?!? She already has a son from a previous marriage and now she has a boyfriend, so I was a bit surprised by the news, but happy for her as she is 5 years older than me. The best surprise - She is only a few days ahead of me! Wow, 3 babies in March!!! That's awesome! The wedding was ok, but I tried not to dance much and by midnight was exhausted and all I wanted to do is just to get to bed, unfortunately for me the sister of the groom started playing games with the bride and groom and we could not leave while they were on a dance floor. By 1 o'clock when we said our goodbyes I was exhausted. The funny thing was that both our friend and I broke the news of our pregnancy to the bride within minutes of each other as we were saying our goodbyes. She was shocked, but happy for us. She kind of knew that we were trying, but not the extent of our struggles.
Saturday, started like a nice day. My friend, J, who I worked with a long time ago came to visit with her two girls and husband. The interesting thing was that I am trying to remember how we became friends and I can't remember. We were working together - I was in my first or second year after call and she was a clerk. Then one morning I asked her to do something and she said "F- you!" yep, to my face and in front of the secretary, and then went outside. I so cannot handle conflicts, that a person saying this to my face left me speechless and shacking. When my boss arrived, our secretary actually told him what happened, and he talked to me and talked to her. Well, he wasn't about to fire me, and choosing between the two of us he definitely would have chosen me, so she quit. Then a few years later he came back, he hired her on part time basis. At first, I thought I would not be able to handle it, but by the time she got married and had a kid we were close friends. Go figure... But, back to my week. We had a nice time together. DH made an amazing breakfast as usual, and then I told her that gossip that I found of FB that the secretary we both worked with just gave birth and I added that our baby was due in March. J was ecstatic! She knew all the hell with went through, and even though she got pregnant with her first child on her honeymoon, and the second one not long after the first one was born, she still understood me. So I really wanted to tell her face to face.
After DH & I went to my BIL's house to help BIL with assembling a new BBQ - well DH was helping and I was just there looking beautiful, LOL. Neither my SIL nor MIL were home, so it was just three of us. After it was assembled and SIL and MIL came home (not together though), BIL did a BBQ, and I didn't touch a piece. I felt so nauseous that I only had some watermelon and an apple. After a few hours I decided that it was enough for me visiting and went home to --- sleep! It was around 7 p.m. when I woke up and I was very groggy. DH said that he was going to BIL's house to teach him how to back cookies, and he didn't want me to be on my own (I was groggy and whiny). So off to BIL's house we went again. As DH & BIL were backing cookies I was watching CNN and Irene, as DH & BIL have business in NY and we were all concerned what would happened to it, and whether they would have to go to NY thereafter. We spent the evening with our friends. My girlfriends were asking tons of questions about my pregnancy, so it was kind of nice that it was out in the open now. I wasn't feeling good, but it was still nice.
Sunday, I had to go to the office as my boss was leaving on Tuesday and we had lots of things to do. So both Sunday and Monday I had really really long days. Of course, when you don't have time crap happens. I don't know if it is pregnancy related or not but my stomach was upset for both Sunday and Monday, and I managed to lose another 0.5 kg (which I gained back this week once that problem went away). It is just crazy, when I didn't have upset stomach I would feel nauseous. I think from all the fruits that I eat by stomach feels raw inside a lot of times. I think the pregnancy also making me stuffed up. I've been sneezing a lot for the past month and if I lay down on my back for a long period of time (like I did when I was talking to my prego friend in US for 1.5 hours) I cannot breathe! I've been also feeling dizzy a lot which is not new to me, but I am thinking that it relates to my sinuses. Ugh!!! Can't wait for the nausea to go away. C'mon I am 13 weeks pregnant today, and I still feel like shit!!! Plus, I've been having headaches, which I haven't had for a while. I am trying to blame the ever changing weather. So we will see how it goes.
Wednesday, DH & I with my sis & BIL went to see To.tem by Cir.que de So.lei. It was awesome! I just loved it! It was the third show that we've seen, and every time it was a great experience, and we had amazing seats too. The problem was that it was downtown, and we parked very close to chapiteau and of course, once the show was over (and it was a sold out show) it took us over 30 min to get out of the parking lot. So, I could barely survive until I got to my bed, and took a late train in to work this morning.
So my prego friend from US had her NT scan on Wednesday, and she wanted to tell my sis that she is prego (she is close to my sis too). But since we were at the cirque she didn't do it yesterday. She told her today, as my sis took a day off work to entertain her kids before school starts. I was dreading this moment. DH & I & my prego friend discussed it and we decided that it was ok for my friend to tell my sis that I knew for some time as they told us when we told them. Well, as I expected, my sis took it as an insult that I didn't tell her. As soon as she hung up the phone, I got a text form her "Thx for tell me that ... was prego" yep! I told her that I really wanted to tell her but I couldn't. To which she replied "not nice". Uhm... ok. So my next text was - would you like me telling your secrets to other people. Our friend wanted to tell you herself and on her time. The response: "sure". WTH does it mean???? Anyways, I talked to DH and he told me to stop stressing out about it, if my sis wants to be upset cause I kept someone's secret that's her prerogative, but I should think of myself and our baby. I did call my parents as a preemptive strike and explained the situation to my mom, who is a mediator in the family. We will see what will happen. Ugh, so much drama!!! and I knew that it would happen this way, I've known my sis for 30 years already.
Well onto a more pleasant news - tomorrow (Friday) is our first OBGYN apt so I have to prepare a list of questions, that I have been compiling in my head. I am really looking forward to hearing our baby's heart beat - please, oh please, let the doc use a doppler! I can't wait to hear it (just a tiny bit anxious). So going to sleep now, so tomorrow can come sooner :)
Of course I couldn't sleep before our NT scan. I woke up at 5 a.m. and was just watching the clock, and then realized that DH is not sleeping either, so I asked him if he is also anxious and he said "No!". I think he was as we both just tossed and turned until it was time to get up. We got to the hospital with a few minutes to spare and there was already a line up at the reception. I told receptionist that i had an apt for 8 o'clock and she just said to take a seat. I told her that I had a full bladder as I was told to drink water when making the apt and she said that I can go ahead and pee, to which I replied that I better not.
We ended up waiting for over 30 minutes before we were taken in (after the clinic where we were always taken in right away - this was an unpleasant change). The u/s tech was a young lady and she turned out to be Russian. We asked her if we can record the last part on the iphone and she said NO, even though I told her that we did it twice before and techs had no problem with that. Well she still insisted that we cannot do that - so we didn't, which was a shame. As she started her measurements I couldn't see the screen and DH was telling me what was happening on the screen, with baby moving his/her arms and legs :) and turning around all the time. Even though, the baby was very active, the tech managed to get the results pretty quickly (I sneaked a peak at the paper and NT was 1.5 mm, which Dr. Google says is about average!). Then we had a blast just watching the baby move. He/she was very active, turning his/her bum to us every time the tech would find his/her profile. The baby was wiggling his/her arms and legs, and at one point he/she stretched his/her legs so that the sac and probably my uterus stretched out, and DH was like "Can you feel it? Can you feel it?" and I couldn't as 1st the u/s probe was putting pressure on my tummy and 2nd I don't think I can feel anything yet. The baby was measuring 61.1mm, so he/she grew up 3 times in the past 3 weeks. The hb was at 157 b/minute, which is slower than 3 weeks ago, but u/s tech said that it is standard for the baby's heart beat to slow down a bit as the baby gets older. The baby was measuring 61.1mm and I am so upset that I forgot to ask the tech where the baby is in terms of weeks and days. I googled it, but got very different answers, so am trying to let it go until our OBGYN apt.
After the u/s we headed to my parents to show them the pics of their third grandson/daughter, and then straight to the office. It was our summer party. So I only spent about 2-3 hours at the office and we were out walking to a restaurant to meet the rest of the firm (yep we are always the last ones to leave - ALWAYS!). As we were really late we walked for a bit until we spotted a taxi. It was a nice day and we spend a few hours relaxing on a patio. I was hesitant at first whether to break the news to the rest of the office (there were actually only 2 people who didn't know and a wife of one of the partners). So almost at the end I said to my clerk: "It's too bad that I wont be here for next summer party." She instantaneously understood what I was trying to do, and played along. I did get a reaction from the ladies, of course. The guys kind of ignore it, oh well... After the party me and my clerk decided to walk to the train to head home and it was a good 30 min walk, which was also fast paced as I was afraid to miss my train (the first one!!! which I NEVER take). As I got on the train I realized that I'll have no one to pick me up, as DH was still at the office and my sis is taking the later train, but the weather was beautiful and I decided to walk home (another 30 minute walk). My plan was to get home, change and go to a salon to do my pedicure - again walking another 3 km. It was a great plan but by the time I got home I was exhausted. I didn't sleep well, stayed most of the day outside, and walked for over an hour pretty fast. I decided to rest lay on a couch for a minute, and when I felt that there is no way I could leave the house right now, I just peeled myself off the couch and dragged myself to bed. It was great 3 hour sleep. :)
Friday, I had to leave the office early as our friend was getting married. I was a bit anxious as I knew there would be people who I didn't want to tell my news, and others that I wanted to tell, although we didn't know most of the people there. My sis went with us. As I was chitchatting with a friend who I haven't seen in a while, I told her that we are expecting, and she said: "Me too!" I was like WHAT!?!? She already has a son from a previous marriage and now she has a boyfriend, so I was a bit surprised by the news, but happy for her as she is 5 years older than me. The best surprise - She is only a few days ahead of me! Wow, 3 babies in March!!! That's awesome! The wedding was ok, but I tried not to dance much and by midnight was exhausted and all I wanted to do is just to get to bed, unfortunately for me the sister of the groom started playing games with the bride and groom and we could not leave while they were on a dance floor. By 1 o'clock when we said our goodbyes I was exhausted. The funny thing was that both our friend and I broke the news of our pregnancy to the bride within minutes of each other as we were saying our goodbyes. She was shocked, but happy for us. She kind of knew that we were trying, but not the extent of our struggles.
Saturday, started like a nice day. My friend, J, who I worked with a long time ago came to visit with her two girls and husband. The interesting thing was that I am trying to remember how we became friends and I can't remember. We were working together - I was in my first or second year after call and she was a clerk. Then one morning I asked her to do something and she said "F- you!" yep, to my face and in front of the secretary, and then went outside. I so cannot handle conflicts, that a person saying this to my face left me speechless and shacking. When my boss arrived, our secretary actually told him what happened, and he talked to me and talked to her. Well, he wasn't about to fire me, and choosing between the two of us he definitely would have chosen me, so she quit. Then a few years later he came back, he hired her on part time basis. At first, I thought I would not be able to handle it, but by the time she got married and had a kid we were close friends. Go figure... But, back to my week. We had a nice time together. DH made an amazing breakfast as usual, and then I told her that gossip that I found of FB that the secretary we both worked with just gave birth and I added that our baby was due in March. J was ecstatic! She knew all the hell with went through, and even though she got pregnant with her first child on her honeymoon, and the second one not long after the first one was born, she still understood me. So I really wanted to tell her face to face.
After DH & I went to my BIL's house to help BIL with assembling a new BBQ - well DH was helping and I was just there looking beautiful, LOL. Neither my SIL nor MIL were home, so it was just three of us. After it was assembled and SIL and MIL came home (not together though), BIL did a BBQ, and I didn't touch a piece. I felt so nauseous that I only had some watermelon and an apple. After a few hours I decided that it was enough for me visiting and went home to --- sleep! It was around 7 p.m. when I woke up and I was very groggy. DH said that he was going to BIL's house to teach him how to back cookies, and he didn't want me to be on my own (I was groggy and whiny). So off to BIL's house we went again. As DH & BIL were backing cookies I was watching CNN and Irene, as DH & BIL have business in NY and we were all concerned what would happened to it, and whether they would have to go to NY thereafter. We spent the evening with our friends. My girlfriends were asking tons of questions about my pregnancy, so it was kind of nice that it was out in the open now. I wasn't feeling good, but it was still nice.
Sunday, I had to go to the office as my boss was leaving on Tuesday and we had lots of things to do. So both Sunday and Monday I had really really long days. Of course, when you don't have time crap happens. I don't know if it is pregnancy related or not but my stomach was upset for both Sunday and Monday, and I managed to lose another 0.5 kg (which I gained back this week once that problem went away). It is just crazy, when I didn't have upset stomach I would feel nauseous. I think from all the fruits that I eat by stomach feels raw inside a lot of times. I think the pregnancy also making me stuffed up. I've been sneezing a lot for the past month and if I lay down on my back for a long period of time (like I did when I was talking to my prego friend in US for 1.5 hours) I cannot breathe! I've been also feeling dizzy a lot which is not new to me, but I am thinking that it relates to my sinuses. Ugh!!! Can't wait for the nausea to go away. C'mon I am 13 weeks pregnant today, and I still feel like shit!!! Plus, I've been having headaches, which I haven't had for a while. I am trying to blame the ever changing weather. So we will see how it goes.
Wednesday, DH & I with my sis & BIL went to see To.tem by Cir.que de So.lei. It was awesome! I just loved it! It was the third show that we've seen, and every time it was a great experience, and we had amazing seats too. The problem was that it was downtown, and we parked very close to chapiteau and of course, once the show was over (and it was a sold out show) it took us over 30 min to get out of the parking lot. So, I could barely survive until I got to my bed, and took a late train in to work this morning.
So my prego friend from US had her NT scan on Wednesday, and she wanted to tell my sis that she is prego (she is close to my sis too). But since we were at the cirque she didn't do it yesterday. She told her today, as my sis took a day off work to entertain her kids before school starts. I was dreading this moment. DH & I & my prego friend discussed it and we decided that it was ok for my friend to tell my sis that I knew for some time as they told us when we told them. Well, as I expected, my sis took it as an insult that I didn't tell her. As soon as she hung up the phone, I got a text form her "Thx for tell me that ... was prego" yep! I told her that I really wanted to tell her but I couldn't. To which she replied "not nice". Uhm... ok. So my next text was - would you like me telling your secrets to other people. Our friend wanted to tell you herself and on her time. The response: "sure". WTH does it mean???? Anyways, I talked to DH and he told me to stop stressing out about it, if my sis wants to be upset cause I kept someone's secret that's her prerogative, but I should think of myself and our baby. I did call my parents as a preemptive strike and explained the situation to my mom, who is a mediator in the family. We will see what will happen. Ugh, so much drama!!! and I knew that it would happen this way, I've known my sis for 30 years already.
Well onto a more pleasant news - tomorrow (Friday) is our first OBGYN apt so I have to prepare a list of questions, that I have been compiling in my head. I am really looking forward to hearing our baby's heart beat - please, oh please, let the doc use a doppler! I can't wait to hear it (just a tiny bit anxious). So going to sleep now, so tomorrow can come sooner :)
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