I will do a full post on his birth and the events leading up to it, as I am holding as many details as I can in my head right now. I just really really don't have time to sit and write, as his early arrival wrecked havoc in our lives.
Our precious miracle was born in the early morning of June 17. My labour progressed so quickly that I started pushing before the epidural was completely done!!! All I can say is that natural birth is not for me, the pain was blinding and excruciating, I don't want to EVER give birth without drugs. As I said to DH, if by some miracle we would be blessed by another child, I will be getting an epidural BEFORE I go to the hospital.
So now for my little miracle baby. He is a fighter, born at just over 29 weeks, and currently in NICU. He is doing pretty well. He is a big baby :) but still tiny. I do have thoughts of just running away with him, as it is hard leaving him at the hospital. As I said, my life right now is a total wreck and I am struggling with keeping a balance. I continue to work, I have to as we do need money and I already committed to my clients. My last deal is closing August 3 and I am not taking any new work. BUT, I am busy, so I sleep about 4-5 hours a night max and every day juggling pumping every 3-4 hours, work commitments, a trip downtown to get some skin-to-skin action with our little one in the morning and sometimes in the evening, plus spending time with my two year old. I am exhausted, but what can I do..... Just need to survive this and next week and it should get better work wise. I am proud to say that I am a milk factory :) I think by now my little one has enough frozen b. milk that he can take a bath in it. Hopefully it will continue.
Here is a very short synopsis of where I am right now. Back to work for me.
